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همين

حالا كه چند سال از رفتنت مي گذرد

به اعتراف مي گويم!

از وقتي نيستي

اسمت توي ذهنم

هميشه به تازگي مي درخشد

بي انكه خاك بخورد

 و رها شود به حال خودش!

آري

حالا كه رفتي شده صدايت

يكي از واجبات روزهايم

صدايت كه مي آيد

تنهايي است و اشك!

آري

صدايت همه است.

باز هم بعد از چند سال از رفتنت كه مي گذرد مي گويم

خوب شد كه رفتي

خوب شد كه نماندي كنار اينهمه سياهي انباشته شده.

خوب شد كه رفتي و از آن بالا بالا اينهمه تلخي را خيره شدي

خوب شد كه نماندي كنار اينهمه تنهايي و كوره راه و بيچارگي...

درست است.

اگر بودي

حالا

از غصه اينهمه بي اعتباري فكر

مي افتادي در گوشه ي انزوا

و از خودخوري مي مردي

خوب شد.

خيلي خوب شد كه حالا

شبها

پيش از اينكه بخوابم

مي آيي و كنارم

دراز مي كشي و حرف نميزني...

Dear God, I'm writing this letter to you
cause I don't have a clue, can you help me
I'm sitting here, simply trying to figure out
what my life's all about, can you tell me
I never wanted to be, the person you see
can you tell me who I am
I always wanted to die, but you kept me here alive
can you tell me who I am
I lie awake conducting this symphony
that you have gifted to me, I can't ever sleep
don't get mad, but I get weak inside
and I start to fall apart, cause I feel nothing
I never wanted to be, some kind of comic relief
please show me who I am
I've been tortured and scorned, since the that I was born
but I don't know who I am, and I thank you man for everything
sorry I'm so frightened about all of it, but I wish I could give you more
and all the lights are shining down on me, and I feel intimated by it all
I never wanted to be, the person you see, but thank you
oh god please tell me now, are you disappointed? are you proud
haven't I done everything, everything
I'm so sorry I'm so weak, and I turned into a freak
but I don't know anything, anything
I've lost all self-esteem, my baby and everything and I feel nothing, nothing
oh god please tell me now
oh god please tell me now, cause i feel nothing
and dear god I'm writing this letter to you
I am coming unglued please help me